Sunday, September 3, 2017

Stop It, Right Now

My friend soaking in the views at White Sands National Monument in January 2017.
Photo Credit: JennyPennyAho

The saying "just do YOU" has come out of my mouth several times when trying to encourage other people.  But practicing what you preach is hard! As much as I know I shouldn't compare myself to others and just be me --I do it on a regular basis. 

As a teenager and young adult, I compared myself to of others who got better grades than me and performed better in sports. I was jealous of others having nicer clothes or a fancier car, etc, the list goes on. In the last few years, I was jealous of woman who were mothers because I wanted a child so badly. And now in recent months, I have been envious of other mothers who had a beautiful natural delivery, jealous of those who are successfully breastfeeding their child or envious of the first official car ride home from the hospital with their hubby and adorable son or daughter. 

Seriously, when does it end? Why do we do compare ourselves to others? Why are we jealous and envious of what other people have? Do we do it just to torment ourselves?  Is it evil playing with our mind to make us feel bad about ourselves?  

In the past couple weeks, I came to the conclusion I am tired of feeling jealous, envious and comparing myself to others. I'm just OVER it. I reminded myself when I have these feelings or thoughts, I am telling the Lord what He created (me) is NOT good enough.  And it makes me sad that I am disappointing my God, so it prompted me to research scripture to remind myself I AM everything the Lord wants me to be. 

      But let each one test his own work, and then his reason   

      to boast will be in himself alone and not in his neighbor.  Galatians 6:4

     Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another. 
Galatians 5:26

      A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, 
but envy makes the bones rot.      

     Proverbs 14:30

     But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish 
ambition in your hearts, do not boast and 
be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom 
that comes down from above, but
 is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. 

     James 3:14-15

     Keep your life free from love of money, and 
be content with what you have, for he has said, 
“I will never leave you nor forsake you.” 

     Hebrews 13:5

This past week, I attended my women's Bible study and we decided on a study that will help us explore the everyday issues (control, insecurity, comparisons, fear and anger) that hold us back from our full potential as women of Christ. I arrived home that evening and couldn't believe the timing God had and I thanked Him for it. I am seriously in awe of His timing. He simply amazes me. 

So my plan is to stop it, right now! I am going to keep those scriptures handy and attend the Bible study and be vulnerable with other Christian women who most likely have the same struggles as me. If we can encourage and love one another instead of comparing ourselves and being jealous or envious, we can all be better daughters and sons to Him.  

I would like to say thank you Lord for putting this on my heart. I love you and can't wait to be a better daughter to You because I am good enough. 


*If you are interested in the Bible study and you live in the Alamogordo/Tularosa area, please email me, so I can give you details on when and where we meet. 

The name of the study is:  She's Got Issues by Nicole Unice

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Finding A Purpose

Photo Credit: JennyPennyAho
Location: Alamogordo, New Mexico

I was recently asked to speak at two women's events to share my faith journey.  One is next month and one is in April.  It is a bit nerve wracking knowing I am speaking in front of at least 40 people per session.  
Over the past year, I have been sharing my faith journey, but it's mostly been shared with those who followed Caring Bridge posts and those whom I see at Bible study and Small Group on a weekly basis.  
On Valentine's evening, as Seth worked out in the garage, I sat at my laptop reading through the first four months of Caring Bridge posts I wrote in the fall of 2014.  I even downloaded the PDF and thought about printing it, until I saw that it was well over 500 pages.  Can you believe that?!  Since September 4, 2014, we have had 12,454 visits to the Caring Bridge site. It was truly an amazing way for me to share his progress and give tid bids of my thoughts and emotions through the journey we took together.
Back to Valentine's Day last week...
I sat at my desk for about two hours reading the journal posts and locating the scriptures I pulled from good 'ol Google in those first four months post accident.  I was in tears because it brought me back to those emotions I felt not that long ago.  Those scriptures truly helped me find comfort in a terrible situation and helped me sleep better at night. 

In the past year, I have shared bits and pieces of my faith journey and I am just starting to realize this may be a part of God's purpose for me.  I think I was meant to share our story and my faith journey.  Our story and faith journey prove there is light at the end of the tunnel, as long as we put our faith in God. A month or so before we left Texas to make our trek back to New Mexico, I recall telling people "there is light at the end of the tunnel and it's not an oncoming train!"  I chuckle at it now, but it truly was exactly what I felt back then.  

As I begin preparing for my "official" sharing of my faith journey, I would like to thank my small group members, close friends and family who took my phone calls during that season of my life and those who have helped me dig further into my faith. I would appreciate positive thoughts and prayers as I prepare to share my faith journey to these two groups of women.  I pray it flows easily and most of all, I pray it encourages others. 
This post was written after seeing what a friend posted on Facebook today.  She shared a YouTube video of a song that I love listening to, but tonight reading the lyrics brought emotions back to that hard season I experienced not long ago.  I wanted to share that song with you and hope it helps you find comfort if you are going through a rough season right now.  
Tell Your Heart To Beat Again